My heart; it's February

It’s bitter cold out these days with lots of snow and ice. Normal for Iowa, not so for the Southern states getting crushed with winter storms. I’m sure there was mad rush for winter coats and snow shovels. Cold weather is the perfect time to read and I just finished The Mighty Heart of Sunny St. James by Ashley Herring Blake. This book has been gathering dust on my school library shelf for about a year. I ordered it after reading very good reviews and I had a personal and professional goal to continue to round out our library shelves with diverse titles. It’s maddening to think this sweet story could make someone else angry and ask for it to be removed from the library. What a terrible place we are in as we build out shelves specifically for all students only to hear that we could be punished for those choices.

Sunny St. James is a 12-year-old young girl who has heart problems both physically and emotionally. She receives a new heart to replace her old damaged one all while she is trying to figure out who she wants to kiss.  What she really wants is to be a “normal” tween who can run and play on the beach and kissing another person is part of that. She focuses her attention on boys because that’s what is “normal” but in her heart she is curious about kissing girls. She and Kate live in a small beach community where everyone knows her and she’s lead a physically restrictive life while waiting for this new heart. 

Her best friend Margot used to help her through all this but she branched out and made new friends from her swim team (an activity Sunny couldn’t participate in) and Sunny feels abandoned. One of her goals after surgery is to meet a new best friend and one day on the beach she meets Quinn someone brand new to the island who doesn’t know Sunny’s history. Her real mother Lena abandoned her as well when Sunny was four and Lena’s best friend Kate has been raising Sunny. After surgery Lena decides to reappear in Sunny’s life creating more confusion for both Kate and Sunny.

There is so much emotion, both sad and joyful in the story and I wish I’d had this book while I was in elementary school because many of Sunny’s questions and feelings about her surgery and recovery are emotions I’ve been through myself. I was 11 years old when it was discovered that my mitral valve was damaged due to an undetected case of rheumatic fever as a child. I underwent valve replacement surgery at Children’s Hospital in Minneapolis. I received a porcine valve and four years later after experiencing symptoms of heart failure, the valve was replaced again with a St. Jude’s plastic valve. I was lucky to be in the same hospital and to have the same surgeon (Dr. Kaiser). 

Through the process I often felt angry that I didn’t feel good, that I couldn’t participate in activities, that I had this scar running down my chest, that I had medicine to take which made me feel old. I adjusted over time and feel blessed that my parents saw my symptoms and knew I needed medical help. Sunny St. James spoke to me in a way that made me feel understood even at my age. She might also speak to a young girl who is experiencing the same confused feeling about who she wants to kiss. Imagine that young person hugging this book in their arms and understanding that they have allies. Making a connection through literature can easily help a young (or old) person feel in balance about their unique thoughts and feelings.  The “I’m not alone…” idea. 

If you can imagine this book on a banned book list you can see how banning books sucks out all of our humanity. To counteract that feeling you should request this book from your public library or order it, read it, pass it on…it’s a story worth sharing!

What I'm looking forward to reading…

 

My reading goal for Goodreads is 70 books and considering I accomplished 65 last year I think this is a very feasible goal. There are so many great books on the horizon and I have a huge stack of Book-of-the-Month choices and a few books from my Christmas list. I’ve got plenty to read and this year once again I will probably have plenty of time to kick my feet up and read. 
Here are the 9 that I’m most excited about:

To Paradise by Hanya Yanagihara– I loved A Little Life and hope this one lives up to the buzz. This one weaves together three different timelines including a futuristic look at our world in 2093. I don’t own this one so if you have a copy let me know. Otherwise I’ll have to be on a wait list at the library.
The Sentence by Louise Erdrich-One of my favorite authors I’m very much looking forward to reading this “wickedly funny ghost story” according to the inside blurb! I do have a copy of this one signed by the author from her bookstore, Birchbark Books, in Minneapolis. 

Malibu Rising by Taylor Jenkins Reid– I loved, loved, loved Daisy Jones and the Six and hope this one will be just as interesting. Set in 1983 the story takes place all in one day as the Rivas family prepares for their annual end-of-the-summer bash. Got this one from BOTM and it is on my up-next stack.
We are the Brennans by Tracey Lange-This story follows the life of Sunday Brennan as she makes her way back to her family after a drunk driving accident. This book was not on my radar until I heard the Readheads talking about it. More on that later.
Klara and the Sun by Kazua Ishiguro- Never Let Me Go has been on my to-read pile for awhile and I need to move it up and then read this one as well. Klara an AI Friend is the narrator and she has amazing skills of watching human behavior. I’m not a science fiction fan but this idea is intriguing.
People We Meet On Vacation by Emily Henry– Groovy Girl stole this one off my book pile over winter break. Another BOTM club pick I look forward to this relationship beach read about Poppy and Alex and the fallout from a bad decision that cost them their friendship.
The Family by Naomi Krupitsky- A debut novel about two best friends surviving through the shared experience in the Italian Mafia Family when the disappearance of one of their father’s begins to cause conflict in their lifelong friendship. (BOTM)
A History of Wild Places by Shea Ernshaw – A mystery about a missing woman and a foreboding place known as Pastoral; a reclusive community founded by like-minded people searching for a better way of life.  (BOTM)
As you can see I am way behind on my long list of BOTM-probably should cancel for the next few months as I catch up. I need to finish Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer, and begin Kent Nerburn’s The Wolf at Twilight so I can return it to the friend who lent it to me (thank you Gabbi!) Plus my stepmother gifted me Amanda Gorman’s new book, Call Us What We Carry, and yesterday my mother-in-law recommended The Children’s Blizzard by Melanie Benjamin, and I have the Leigh Bardugo follow up series King of Scars and Rule of Wolves to read this winter (also on loan from friends).  
Zowie! I should be off reading in a corner somewhere.  What are you looking forward to reading?
Someone recently turned me on to the book podcast The Readheads Book Club starring four college friends. You feel like you’re part of the book club as they discuss a wild amount of titles! Luckily it only arrives once a month!  
It is freezing here so I’m off to cuddle up and finish Bed Stories by Tao Lin.