My jacket

I’ve loved this leather jacket for many years. I bought it in my mid 20’s when I worked for Benetton in Minneapolis/St Paul. I wore it to concerts and shows, often to 1st Avenue. A coat like this becomes part of your person. Friends asked to borrow it and I happily let them because I wanted to share the good vibes I had while wearing the jacket. It brought me such joy. It still does. 

Several years later I moved to Boulder, Colorado and I still wore the jacket although not as frequently. My Minneapolis downtown style intersected with my newly embraced mountain bohemian rhapsody. Flannel shirts and and t-shirts fit nicely under this black rugged jacket. The story of the jacket takes a turn here a few more years later while I was living in Denver.
I wore the jacket out one night with  jeans and a simple white t-shirt. I met my friend Stan at a bar where he was entertaining his friends from Chicago. They’d gone golfing during the day and then he called and asked if I would join them. I was introduced to the guys who were rowdy and raring to go for their night out. I had one gin and tonic while we made plans to find some food. Both Stan and I needed to eat and were body aware enough that we usually made it a priority if we were out together. While we made plans to go to a favorite Mexican restaurant we ran into some local friends including Stan’s roommate Chris. We ended up back at Chris’ girlfriends house which was supposed to be a small stop but turned into a major ordeal. 
The girlfriend’s roommate was acting as host and offered to make us drinks. We accepted but Stan and I were still very much on the “must get food soon” He (the roommate) brought hand mixed drinks out to each of us although several of the Chicago boys just had beers. They were restless so it was decided that they would go for food with Stan driving while I stayed back and waited for Chris and the girlfriend (I’ve completely blanked her name but I can picture her). It seemed like mere moments after they left that I finished the drink and I was beyond exhausted and started to fall asleep on the sofa. 
This is the point in the story where many of you might be thinking “what was in the drink?” and you would be right. I ended up crashing in the roommate’s bed with promises from both Chris and the girlfriend that I would be completely safe. I crashed hard, missed Stan and friends coming back with food, and ended up puking my guts out in the middle of the night after feeling said roommate naked and rubbing up against me.  I wandered out to the living room, grabbed my jacket, and dialed my own apartment asking my brother to pick me up through quiet sobs. I waited outside for him and realized I was missing the belt of my beloved leather jacket but I couldn’t walk back into that house and hoped it could be retrieved at a later time. 
I should have had my brother take me to the nearest emergency room. I just wanted to crawl in bed and forget about it. This was the 1990’s; until that night I’d never even thought about date rape drugs. It just never occurred to me but there was definitely something in that drink that made me pass out. Even though I still love this jacket and wear it happily I always remember a glimmer of that night when I put my arms into the sleeves, when I think about the empty belt loops.  I choose to wear it anyway. 
Even though I remember I’m not going to let it overwhelm my love and attachment to this singular item or my general well-being. Humans are hearty souls and we are able to adapt to overwhelming situations. I tell this story now just to write it out one more time as a reminder of what I’ve experienced and how lucky I was to have woken up because the story could have had a much different ending.  

Books that make you teary…

    
     Story time tonight we read The Junkyard Wonders by Patricia Polacco.  I am always amazed at the stories Polacco has to tell.  She had difficulties during her childhood and she shares these stories through her books so others, young and old, can, I don’t know, feel represented out there in the big world.  Each time I read some of her titles I get teary.  Betty Doll did it to me.  Thank You, Mr. Falker did it to me. Pink and Say did it to me.  Add The Junkyard Wonders to the list-Books that make me cry. 

     Polacco tells the story of the year she stayed in Michigan for school and was placed in the junk class of misfits.  Mrs. Peterson, her new teacher, is one of those amazing individuals who see her students as unique and worthwhile.The class bonds and work together to create some special hands-on projects.  Mrs. Peterson’s brilliant teaching is reason enough to read the book but there’s more.    If you haven’t checked out Patricia Polacco’s latest book I highly recommend it to all.

What books are on your tear up list? 

GTC reviews it at Books For Kids.

While I haven’t had a chance to download my Halloween photos I did make this over the weekend…Watch my Skater Girl video-she is learning to spin! I should have added music-I’m a novice-and the best moment is at the end.  She is awfully cute.

Tomorrow stop back to read about Buying Time by Pamela Samuels Young.

Flowing words bring tears

Love, Aubrey
Suzanne LaFleur
2009

This is an amazing book and I commend LaFleur for her very first writing attempt!!  It is melodical and  free-flowing!  I loved Aubrey’s character so much the very first chapter brought me to tears!  Be forewarned…the rest of the book will made you cry also because Aubrey suffers such tragedy!

Aubrey is an 11-year-old, just trying to keep it together. at home, by herself.  We gather from her thoughts why her home is empty.  Her father and younger sister, Savannah have died fairly recently and her mother, numb with grief, has taken off somewhere.   Aubrey is brave and determined to make it on her own.  When she is down to her last food items, she heads to the local grocey store to buy what she needs.  When the phone rings to much, bringing unwanted help, she stops answering the phone. 

Thankfully, the door opens one day and Gram comes walking through the door to save the day!  She’s an amazing Grandma and she gave me many flashbacks of my own motherly grandmother.  She folds Aubrey into her arms and takes her back to Vermont with her.  Gram helps Aubrey begin a long-overdue healing process, using little chore lists to get her moving.  As fate would have it I lovely young family, with an 11-year-old daughter, Bridget  live next door and through their friendship and a counselor at school, Aubrey moves forward, past her grief. 
I don’t want to give much away as it is full of sweet surprises but  here is one of my favorite quotes:

I listened to the rain, which was a bad idea because my stomach started feeling funny and I felt like there was oatmeal stuck in my throat.  I pulled a pillow to my chest and held it tight.  Bridget put the photos down, and put her hands in my hair, and on my back.  ‘It’s okay,’ she said.  That didn’t work.  Words never helped anything.  I pressed my eyes closed and remembered that other rainy day, when words didn’t help us…Daddy, why didn’t you just say it a little bit louder?  Why?  Why didn’t you make us all stop?’  Bridget didn’t say anthing as I started to cry.  She just listened, and kept petting me.  ‘I’m glad youre here,’ Bridget said.  I liked Bridget, but I couldn’t agree.  I should have been down in my own house in Virginia, with my own family.  Then I thought I heard Bridget thinking.  Bridget was thinking, Tell me, It’s okay, just tell me.  And I thought back to her, No, Bridget, I can’t.  p. 77

I would have loved a next-door neighbor friend like Bridget, understanding and full of compassion.  LaFleur makes Aubrey’s feelings so palpable for me and the dialogue between characters as well as Aubrey’s thought process make this a treasure!  I would love to see a companion book to unfold more of  Aubrey’s story as she  puts her life back together with her mother. 
Click on Suzanne LaFleur’s website here.

Highly Recommended-Middle School
5/5 peaceful stars

Happy Reading!!
(p.s. this one was one of my random library picks from last week, thus counting for my brand new 2010 Support Your Local Library Challenge)